Memories lane...

Have a long chat with one of the producers about her childhood memories. It's terrific that she can even remember things that happened since she start crawling....Listening to her stories on her childhood with nannies (ma cheh), to how she's being bullied by boys, how's she had to learn doing housework due to older generation thinking of girls have to do all these stuff etc. On my way driving home, I kept thinking it's actually so fun to have that kind of memories to cherish, even though there's ups and down. As compare to her, my memories only start during my school time in primary school. Anything beyond that, I totally cannot recall. Even the memories during school times is merely only with my school mates, about how hard we need to study until 5 pm everyday and nothing as interesting as what she have with that kind of rural experience and fun. Hence, I always tell my frens that I do not have much sweet childhood memories to nibbles. I wish that my next generation will be able to have the chance to really enjoy the process of their childhood and leave some foot prints in their heart. How I wish I have a time machine to back track my life and change everything......

kids kids!!

just finish a shoot for CNY with bunch of kids around.....it's so tiring to work with kids listening to their 'noise' the whole day and yet you can't shout at them coz they are your talents. What if they won't act after you do that, and you will be blame for the rest of the day becoz of your stupid act to make the production a failure. Two days of shoot are all outdoor and I got over burnt as a result of not applying sun block.....hehee.......well...at least i got a 1k increment this time.

See Higher.....

A very appropriate photo to illustrate the idea "Don't be upset over gloomy days, seek higher and further and you'll find the sun"

It's a beginning or an end?

New Year 2007! Everything should be new, hope and resolutions should be in everyone, but why? It's not with me at all. Had been feeling very down yesterday night after digging out my old old dear diary from the book shelves and run through all the diaries that I had written all these years. Lokking from when I started going out with a guy during Uni days, when i am having down days with him, when I got my first job, and when i having trouble with my families and the diaries stop during 2003. Since then, havent been putting a word in there but just keep all the low time to myself. Looking back, I did not move forward much, goal is still so vague and i m still not happy or never been happy all these years....I have no idea what will make me happy and even tried to think deeply how should I make myself happy, but I never been able to find a solution till now. Maybe I am like what all said, 
bu gan ji mo'. When there's no one at my side accompanying me, I'm lost or rather starting to feel down by thinking all the unhappy past. I think I should start telling myself to be more independent, to stand on my own whatever it is.

Another Year older!!

Happy New Year!! It's another year older for me without any resolutions ......think my resolutions is to find a resolutions for the year.....HAHA.....